~IzzieVixxen

So I finally got around to making a journal entry. I'm quite mellow about the whole ordeal actually. Which is very strange. I've been hot and cold all day, one moment on the verge of tears, the next laughing over every little noise. I've been mostly in the laughing, giddy mood though, since I'm trying be a big bouncing bubble. I want everything to just bounce right off.

I took The Sadist down because I am absolutely disgusted with it. I don't hate it; I loathe it. I'm going to re-write it, and the next time I put it up The Masochist will be right behind it. Those two cannot be separated, they belong together. They are "one," I suppose. The point is, I won't give the person that they're about the pleasure of being first.

I'm not doing any of my homework. I'm falling so far behind and I don't think I'll ever be able to catch up. And I don't really care. Education is important, yes, but I'm not really in the mood for education right now. I'd be much happier only taking interactive media classes and spending my days in the library reading. I've spent this past week packing up my house in California so we can go back to our comfortable, quiet home in Oklahoma. I miss my neighbors, my best friend, and my Angus doggie. And I can't stand the anxious feeling I get every time I look out the window. All this is not helping my academic career.

I love Pandora. Even though I'm away from my main computer [which has all my story plot lines and information ], I can still access a world filled to the brim with music. All because of free internet radio. I love it.

Ok, now that I've advertised Pandora to everyone, I feel very tired. I need to catch up on restful sleep. Every night so far has been very restless, hopefully tonight will be different.


Izzie V.